Question For The Ladies……….?

This is a honest question, and all I want is honest answers.
I am 20 and sometimes I wear a diaper. I don’t use it, when I use the restroom I take it off and use the restroom just like underwear , but it is like a security blanket it me, nothing sexual it’s not a fetish, it’s just emotional. It makes me feel safe and secure and it makes me feel special, cute and adorable like I’m little again, and I really like the way they look and and I like the way they feel. I have seen help and they tell me if it’s not hurting anyone then there is nothing wrong with it, I mean some guys prefer boxers, some briefs, I prefer a fluffy soft cushy diaper on my bottom, to me it’s just another piece of clothing, so could any girl accept this?, it’s just a diaper, we all wore one once.
I realize this probably sounds strange but I just wish I could find a girl who wouldn’t think I was a creep, a freak or a weirdo, and really understand that I just miss being a kid sometimes. I know I could be a good loyal, loving boyfriend if I was only given a chance. Don’t girls want a guy who’s not afraid to show his sensitive/ vulnerable side?
How could I tell a girl about this without her feeling uncomfortable around me?
(I’ve asked this question before but I’m trying to get as much input as I can)